Happy New week blog hearts!
I must apologize for publishing posts late(I always try to get them up by 10am)
But I was engaged with INEC stuff throughout the weekend and I almost didn’t post this post today till I got a check in my heart. Why should I hold my gift of writing so loosely? Where do I get off just saying that I won’t post anything on a certain day – for no reason at all. And then I’ll say that I’m using my writing to glorify God?
Well, here am I, I hope today’s words will help someone in one way or the other, since I couldn’t rest easy without putting it up.
I have not gotten around to writing the post about when I was posted to my PPA State for NYSC.(will do so soon)
I had always wanted to be posted to Lagos for NYSC and actually had(have) a jotter of prayer points where I asked God for it and for a big firm that will pay me big money.lol
I figured it would happen if I got my first class (and you all know what happened to the first class, read this post here if you don’t)
And I actually felt “led” that I will be in Lagos.(I still do, somehow)
Before I left law School though, I relegated my own desires and wants(notice that I didn’t say needs) changed my prayer to let God’s will be done for my NYSC year(and my life), but I still really felt like it would be Lagos.(See this post on the will of God here)
I don’t believe in sorting posting for NYSC because I believe all my days were set before the Lord before I was born and if He wants me to be somewhere for NYSC, He would fix me there Himself.I would write on this soon too) and I basically just left it all to God.
The list came out and it was Ekiti state, not Lagos. I told God ok. No problem(actually, a little problem of the flesh wanting what it wants) but I knew that I had settled it all in prayer and God is in charge of anywhere I get sent to/anywhere that I am.
But I certainly didn’t feel that way last week thursday.
I saw a DP of a friend working at a firm in Lagos and I just felt like I was useless.
Because courts have been on strike here in Ekiti, I haven’t even announced appearance in court yet, and my boss doesn’t take me out for any other runs(eg police station and all) that he does.
I looked at myself, hunched at my laptop at work, and I felt like an empty brained lawyer who doesn’t know a thing.
If not for the fact that I have learnt to control my thoughts, I would have been buried deep in depression.
I had to remember that I was hunched up at my laptop trying to set up a website for someone (yes, side hustle announcement, I set up my website myself, design and all, and I can do same for you – for a small price)
And then I forgot the fact that I had a blog that God was using to touch lives.
I forgot the fact that my being in Ekiti has advanced a part of my purpose on earth – speaking in girls secondary schools.
I forgot the fact that that would have been impossible in Lagos what with the Â busy schedule I’d have had there.
I forgot the fact that God was(is) in charge of it all.
And I forgot the fact that the 13 years of seeming slavery are actually the years God uses to prepare us for the years as prime ministers, cue Joseph.
Joseph wasn’t where he wanted to be while he was in the prison, but God used his administration skills at prison when He became a prime minister.
He proved himself faithful as administrator of Potiphar’s household before God elevated him.
He must have felt useless then(what with his big dreams), but God was building him.
Same with Moses.
Moses tended sheeps before he guided the entire Israelites to the promised land.
The 13 years of seeming slavery aren’t really slavery, it’s God building us up for something more.
My being at Ekiti right now, not advancing career wise(seemingly) is God building me up for more which I may not see now.
And to be honest with you all, this whole wig and gown thing isn’t so much a part of where I feel God is leading me to, yes it’s a profession but it’s not pressed in my heart as much as writing is(for example)
I can live without going to the court, but I can’t rest easy without spreading forth the news to young girls that they have a purpose in Christ.
I only felt useless because I compared my path to another’s path.
But I got back on track when I REMEMBERED the fact that God is still working even in the seemingly silent years.
My path and another’s isn’t the same and your path and another’s path isn’t the same.
Wherever you are right now, is where you are meant to be.
God knows all about it.
You should be using your 13 years of slavery for what it’s meant for, building stamina for the prime minister years.
Keep doing what you are doing, Pharoah will come for you soon and when he comes, it will be what you learnt in the silent years that you will need to use to help the nations.
I got some messages from some persons Â after my recent article on BellanaijaÂ -Â messages saying that this blog and my gift of writing is touching lives and I just was blown away again.
See everyone, I won’t hype myself, if you see me physically, I’m just one small girl with a shady past.
I am simply just awed at how God raised a girl who used to date an igbo smoker and had no self esteem or sense of purpose at all, to this girl brimming with Christ in her eyes.
I am as simple as they come, nothing at all, but still people say their lives are blessed through me. Only God could have done that, He used the years when I felt useless to bring me to this point where I am mow.
I may not feel as useless as I did then when I was in the world but last thursday, I felt useless nonetheless but God still works through the seemingly useless days.
He uses them all for good.
What we should do when we feel useless is to simply REMEMBER.
This is a call to reminder for me and you, your 13years of slavery aren’t useless.
The years of silence aren’t useless.
The years in one quiet town isn’t useless, God uses them all for good.
He uses them all in the grand scheme of things.
Keep working and moving forward even in those times, compare your path to no one else’s and know this with all your heart, God is still working through the seemingly useless years.
He turns it all around and when He does, even you will be in awe of what He will wrought through it.
When you feel useless, remember, you may not see the threads that God is weaving through your life right now, but He is making all things into something glorious in your life all the same.
God bless us all.
You are loved.
You are valuable.
You are made for a purpose and even the season you are in right now will be used to fulfil that purpose in Christ Jesus.
Have a glorious week ahead,
P:S – Like I announced in this previous post, expect the post on “A Nigerian youth corper’s experience during the 2015 General elections” this thursday. Plenty story to tell!
Yep, I’m putting out there so I don’t wriggle my way out of it 🙂
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