I didn’t think that I would be able to publish this post today.
In fact, I only realized that I would put it up this morning… Didn’t think that I would have enough “liver” to do so.
I almost didn’t want to write anything throughout this week.
Oh my…
It would be so easy to just let this blog lay fallow and I thought about doing exactly that for a bit… After all, that’s exactly what I did last week thursday and friday.
I got no post up because I couldn’t find it in me to write anything.
I wake up crying and go to sleep crying.
When I am out with friends, I talk, I laugh, I snap pictures…
But when the doors close behind me in my house…
I remember…
I remember…
But I don’t think that I should let the tears stop me from doing what I know that I should be doing.
Writing and blogging is a big part of the purpose for which I am on earth and letting it all go to waste even for one minute will be a waste of God-given time to me.
As I thought about this on saturday, I knew…
There is no time.
You see, that stuff you feel so passionately about…
What burns and burns in your soul and mind that you just can’t stand is an inclination of what you are born to solve on earth.
The drive to spread forth the knowledge on godly relationships burns within me…
The drive to tell others that God has created them with a purpose burns within me…
The drive to see others living forth their lives in Christ and increasing in Christ burns within me…
I almost can’t rest till I get the words in me out on paper/on my blog…
The above and more burn within me.
But I don’t know what burns within you.
What burns within you my dears?
Have you found it yet?
Do you know that there is no time to laze around?
Do you know that the time is running?
Do you know that people need the words in you?
Do you know that people need what God has placed in you?
Do you know that lives are connected to us functioning in our God-given purposes?
There’s no time to waste.
There is a cry more than ever before for us to function in purpose.
I was speaking to some friends and one of them talked about the fact that some male corpers aren’t mature and I agreed with that.
She said some of them can’t even provide and when she looks at a man, she needs to know that he is hard working and can provide for her needs first and I agreed with her.
But I was thinking about more than that.
It’s more than the money and all.
When I speak to a man, his money/cars don’t freak me…
I listen for his vision.
And the main word is, I listen for HIS PURPOSE.
I will deal with that in a future love letter but we all have to know that a great reason for our being on earth…
The fulcrum of our being called into God’s kingdom is to fulfil the reason for which He has created us.
We can’t come to earth and die empty.
We can’t just make money and leave here like that.
There are potentials that God has placed in us…
Potentials and things that can bless lives, draw men unto Him and bring God glory.
Have we found them yet?
Are we functioning in them yet?
I am currently dealing with grief and I have a mind to just lay low but this keeps running through my mind…
THERE IS NO TIME.
What burns within you?
Please start bringing forth the solutions that God has put in you now.
Let nothing hold you back.
Let nothing hold you back.
There is an urgency more than ever before for us to go out there and do what God has placed in us to do.
I am not going to let grief hold me back from doing that.
I will heal and I am already healing because God has been amazing.
But I can’t lay down all depressed.
There are lives to be saved.
There are ears that need the words in me.
There is a purpose to be fulfilled on earth.
I hope we all find our purpose in Christ and fulfil it.
I pray for that for us all with all my heart.
Happy New Week people,
I love you all.
Frances.
P.S- You all have been amazing!
I’m sorry I haven’t replied to the comments on my last post(That post makes me cry but soon I’ll be able to read it and smile)
But still, thank you all for your kind words.
The emails, DM, facebook message and comments…thank you all.
I am alright(I’m getting to the point where I am alright).
God has been amazing too. He is indeed the source of all comfort. I would never have thought that I would write this and put it up today but see… God is a comforter, the very best 🙂
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17 Comments
Naija Bachelor
February 9, 2015 at 11:20 amIt is well with you. I remember not wanting to go back to work or leave the house when my God called my mom home. Then I remembered how she always pushed me to seek my purpose in God and fulfil it. For this reason life had to continue without her even though the grief was there. Remembering the good times and how much I loved and still love her gets me through the periods when I miss her the most. Her words remain with me forever just like H’s words and the good times you shared with him will be with you. What God does is He gives you the ability to smile when you remember. It may take a while but you’ll get there. Getting up and down what God created you to do is also a very good step in the healing process. You have done the right thing and that’s something I respect. You will heal and I will be well with you. Stay strong and let God continue to work in and through you. God bless you.
Frances Okoro
February 10, 2015 at 9:53 amThank you so much naijaBachelor…
I’ll get there…
#smile and thank God for the memories..yes, I will get there.
And. Your first time/first comment on here right? Welcome!!! 🙂
Ugochi
February 9, 2015 at 12:46 pmGreat and helpful post Frances.
The King’s matter requires urgency!
We all better work before the night will come…
Have a super blessed week dear one!
Frances Okoro
February 10, 2015 at 10:01 amThank you so much aunty Ugochi…a dimension to it that we must think about.
The Lord’s business requires urgency…we must not laze around
Maggielola
February 9, 2015 at 2:35 pmI’m glad you’ve found your mojo. The bible instructs us to mourn with those who mourn, you did well on that. But it should never replace or prevent the Holy Spirit’s ultra-healing comfort which is available to us all year round. Thanks for coming back!
Frances Okoro
February 10, 2015 at 10:06 amVery true Maggie…
Sometimes, we just want to be sad..so sad that we don’t even want to hear what God is saying to us to comfort us.
I’m working and getting there.
Thank you so much.
Highly Favored
February 9, 2015 at 5:24 pmWhat burns within me is a desire to be a good representative of the Kingdom of God/Kingdom Ambassador. I am aware of my frailties and shortcomings and I’m burning with desire to make crooked paths straighten up in spiritual areas of my life (attitude, humility, patience to name a few). God is my helper.
Frances Okoro
February 10, 2015 at 10:09 amAmen Highly Favoured!
God is your helper and He will indeed help you.
What burns in you will not die without you living them forth in Jesus name, amen.
Temitope BANKS
February 10, 2015 at 2:27 pmGlad to see you are in a better state of mind. This post is really for me thank you dear.
Frances Okoro
February 10, 2015 at 5:09 pmAnd thank you too, for reading, commenting and for your encouraging words Temitope.
Howdy?
Vicky
February 10, 2015 at 10:35 pmI some how wasn’t able to comment on that post…so sad it had the tears coming. I’m sorry for your loss.
Thank God you didn’t stop posting though that would have been completely understood.
A lot of few things burn within me that i can’t even begin to mention but most of all i desire to touch lifes and draw them into the kingdom, very many different kinds of lifes, divorced, separated, poor, battered, plenty lifes all to His glory and I’m getting there with you o.
Again, so sorry for your loss, can’t imagine.
Frances Okoro
February 11, 2015 at 8:03 pmYou are getting there Vicky…
God gives you the desires, then surely, He will give you ways and how to achieve them…
Thank you for your comforting words.
May H RIp(i hold back everytime I wanna say that, but all’s well) 🙂
*hugs*
Thank you
Cynthia
February 11, 2015 at 2:31 amAwww Frances*bear hugs*. I have been so busy and haven’t had the chance to read your last two blog posts till today and the shock of H’s loss is just so surreal and inexplicable. I don’t even want to begin to imagine what you must be going through or how you must be feeling this period but I know that the good Lord we serve would surely give you and all his loved ones the strength and fortitude to bear this great loss. I’m sure wherever he may be, he must be so proud that you truly, genuinely loved him as a friend albeit the end of that relationship and continue to be thankful to God for the opportunity of that true friendship you both shared. I pray his soul and that of all the faithful departed rests in peace. Amen!! My love and prayers are with you this period sister. And please never ever feel guilty, that you aren’t reaching out to as many people or that no one’s listening to the messages or advice laced with wisdom that you feed us regularly on here because I am a living witness of the many blessings that this blog has brought to me in such a short time so please never stop cos we are listening.
With regards to what burns within me, that is one aspect of my life that has always been a great challenge for me as I am literally and figuratively a “working clock always ticking”and so find that I usually want to achieve so many different things at the same time that I often lose focus of where my God-given talents and purpose in life lies and often times get confused or frustrated when things do not go my way. But I have gotten to a place( praise God!) where I take everyday as it comes seeking and asking God fervently to direct my path in life and to give me a vision of his purpose for me in this earthly journey and most importantly that I utilise those God-given talents to its optimum like the two servants in the bible who made good use of the five and two talents given to them respectively and believe me when I say that things have definitely gotten better. I have come to the realisation that when God is your sole purpose of living, you see things clearer and differently and those imperfect rough edges are perfectly smoothened out by his grace. That really should be everyone’s goal in life and in turn he blesses and everything just falls into place. I think I’m going to stop here now cos I’ve just realised that I’ve probably written an essay. Remain blessed sis the Good Lord is your strengthxxx
Cynthia
February 11, 2015 at 2:34 am*rest in peace*
Frances Okoro
February 11, 2015 at 8:09 pmOh don’t stop, you wrote an essay that soothed me, made me smile, made me nod my head and smile again.
Where do I start from?
It’s indeed only in God that we can find our sole purpose of living…no other way. no other way at all.
I am glad you are at a place where you can filter the “over sabi” want to do everything from what God wants you to do.
As for H, I’ve turned it every which way. It’s hard not to feel guilty but I am working past that.
I felt like stopping the whole writing on love thing but I know that I cant.
If for nothing, this incident has awakened a desire in me to get the message out.
We can only do marriage and relationships God’s way..no other way!
If I dint say anything to H, I would have felt worse but I did say something and I have to keep saying something.
I just pray God waters the words in our hearts.
Again, thank you Cynthia, thank you.
Dee
February 20, 2015 at 8:01 amGod bless you Frances for this post. What burns within me keeps me awake at odd hours praying, it drives me to do more, never to relent and to outdo my last performance. What burns within me spurs me to do some stuff even I never believe I could do, it’s like a flame that blazes more with each bout of desire. What burns in me tell me dee someone’s life is dependent on you, you can’t afford to lay low now. What burns within is that thing that drives me to kindle the fire of purpose in others too to spur them on their path to success.
Lemme stop here, b4 I drop a mini post. Iloved this.. more grace.
Frances Okoro
February 20, 2015 at 1:22 pmI pray you fulfil all that burns within you Dee.
That they won’t lay dormant in you but come alive and bless lives.
#more grace!