Once A Lesbian, Now I Am Straight And Never Going Back

I can’t explain it all but I see it clearly now.

Everything that God has worked in me has been preparing for this point in my life – ministry.
His love to me, given to me even when I had sunk to low depths, abortion, sexual sins, has wrought a work in my heart – one of responding with love whenever anyone tells me anything/seeks counsel from me.
In this walk of purpose He has placed me on, it seems to be one where people who are struggling with issues are drawn to me.
He has not just given me words for them, He has made me a testimony to the fact that He can wipe them off of all of it.
So when I tell them God can make you whole again, it’s not just my words, it’s also my life that’s telling them that truth.
Sometimes like now, I can’t put it into words.
I read my friend’s story below and all I could respond with is “thank you Jesus, you shall perfect all you have started in her life”.
It also made me know that the ideas God gives to me aren’t meant to be joked with.
“Share your story” just started as a light bulb in my head. I met some persons to send in their stories, not even having an inkling about what they would send in, but when I get the articles, I go all “the thing about leading isn’t to be joked with”.
As we all go through this share your story series on the blog, I ask us to respond like I do too – with prayers for everyone who writes in.
I can’t explain what coming out or merely writing what God has done in your life does for you.
For me, obeying God and sharing about my abortions totally set me free from any link that held me to the past.
It’s amazing really. Amazing.
So please pray for everyone, that God’s work will be perfected in their lives. That God will wrought His purpose in, with and through them.
That the holds of the evil one is broken over them forever and that anything in your own life that you are struggling with, God will restore, revive and give that same turn around He has given to us – where your past cannot recognize the one in the now and the future.
God has done that for so many people and He can do it for you… if you let Him.
I pray that this share your story series will give you grace to open up your own life to God and let God come in to work in you in great and mighty ways, in Jesus name, amen.

Read and see God in my friend’s story below:

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Okay , pretty sure Frances didn’t see this side of me coming. Yea, I know, seven years of friendship and never knew I was a lesbian at some point. Lol, His grace is indeed sufficient for me.
Hi everyone, I would like to be anonymous for certain reasons.
I am a 23 year old lady who has had more than her fair share of life dished to her in such a short time.

I masturbated for the first time in 1998, I was six then, I just knew touching my genitals felt so good, till date still can’t figure out how I knew that was a source of pleasure. I am sure one of the many homes I was passed around to when I was growing up or one of the numerous cousins or nannies must have fondled with my genitals, thus, leaving an imprint in my mind. I would never know for sure.
My journey down the lesbianism path started pretty early. I was 9, a cousin of ours, she was fifteen then, at night she would fondle me and with time I did all things imaginable. This went on till I was 11. Then she went back to her parents house. But every time she came back for a visit, even when I was 16, we always hit the sack. There were also episodes of nannies wanting to do same to me. Even in Jss 1, my seat partner and also another girl in Jss3. It was like I attracted them to me. Like mere seeing me, they knew I was their spec.
I am from a very broken home, no one to tell, and as the first child, I had to swallow my pains and act tough for my siblings. I couldn’t bear to look broken the way I felt inside.

One thing about making sure your kids are exposed to Christ very early is that it enables them tell right from wrong. I always felt guilty, very guilty. After every encounter, I would make promises to God, take vows and keep going back for forgiveness. The height was doing same thing with one of my junior sisters. Till date I forever feel bad but this is the first time I have been able to say it out of my system.

I hope one day I would be able to ask her for forgiveness. Lord knows what traumas she would be dealing with inside, she was six or seven years old at that time. But after then I knew I was tired, by Ss1 I knew I was tired of it all, but as usual when my cousin visits, I am right back to where I started.
All this time, I had never had anything to do with a guy. I got to university, joined fellowships, decided none of that stuff was going to happen, even had a boyfriend by the end of second semester. In university there were girls who came at me, in my fourth year I fell into the temptation but I felt so filthy, so dirty. It ended. There have been temptations but I told God what I wanted. I wanted it to stop. It took staying with four girls for one year to test if my case was over. Not once did I do anything with any of them, even the thought did not cross my mind.
Why this long story?
People say once you go gay, you can’t go straight… I am a living breathing example of one who has been there and back and by God’s grace, I am not going back there. Those years of feeling guilty, feeling filthy are so behind me.

I was with a couple of guys recently and they kept pointing to girls they thought were lesbians and kept saying it’s always written over the girls that are. Inside me I smiled, cause I knew God had done a perfect job, that mark, that brand, that stain has been washed off me. I am a lady who has suffered physical, mental, sexual abuse but I am not like my struggles, I don’t even look like anything have been through… Frances can testify I don’t even look like someone from my kind of family background… it’s God and nothing more.
There are temptations once in a while… Girls from my past but I have learnt the skill of avoidance or claiming being busy, if you can’t fight temptation, you can as well FLEE from it.

I thank God for His continued work in my life and I know he is not done with me yet. And to anyone out there who feels he/she cannot get out of it, just remember God is not done with you yet. He is ready whenever you are to do his wondrous works in your life.
Thanks for your patience and time and I hope someone somewhere got motivated to turn around today. Maybe one day I will be able to write on other parts of my life that has seen hell but came out winning.
God bless you all.
Anonymous.

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