I don’t think that I have ever shared about the time when I was washed clean of my guilt about the past abortions I committed.
I just resumed Law School at Lagos Campus then and decided to attend a meeting for single ladies organized by my Church.
The minister suddenly veered off into prayers for ladies who had committed an abortion… and I wept and wept as the full reality of what I did washed over me.
Prior to this moment, I carried the guilt around even though I was born again. I just couldn’t find rest and peace in my spirit. But that day I gave it all to God.
I totally laid it bare before Him, asking Him to forgive me. And then I was sure that my babies were in his hands. I could go on with my life knowing that my Father who loves babies, took back the ones I killed from ignorance.
And from that moment in 2013 till now, I have been set free from the guilt that almost threatened to bury me alive.
I was given a new lease in Christ… which is what He promises to all who come to Him.
BUT… If I were to go back in time (which I can’t) I would not have done what I did.
I did it out of ignorance, out of fear, out of being in darkness.
And so when people come to me to ask about what to do now that they are pregnant outside marriage, I say do the right thing. The God thing. And that is to keep that baby.
I know it is hard; you wonder about how you will feed him/her, your parents, your friends, your fellowship in School, the shame…
But a baby isn’t a shame, a baby is a beautiful thing.
And that’s just the thing: people say that a baby is just a thing… “its” not yet a life.
But one of my favorite Psalms remain Psalm 139, and in it David said a very profound statement.
“You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.”
God recorded our lives in His book even before we were born, we started counting as something amazing to Him while we were yet in the womb, before we had even taken shape into a fully grown baby.
God cares about the baby in the womb.
He released it to that mother; hard as it may seem to wrap our heads around why God would allow a baby to come to a single woman and not a married woman… but who are we to question God?
He weaves beautiful tapestries with our lives even before we are born.
He told Jeremiah:
“The LORD gave me this message:Â
“I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb. Before you were born I set you apart and appointed you as my prophet to the nations.”
The baby in your womb is life; life that God has planned for.
Life that the Alpha and Omega has set in place even before its entry into earth.
And if you cut it short, he/she will never grow into what God has ordained for him/her.
I know the circumstances surrounding his/her birth will not be pleasant; you may never have a bridal shower, you may have to put up with your friends and family’s mockery for a while, you may have to struggle financially for a while…
But oh, you have also got to know that if you give this situation to God and do the God Thing, God will take it over and weave beauty from the ashes.
God will never forsake His own… if you will only go back to Him and let Him help you through your journey.
I cannot go back and rewind my past but who God knew all these…
He knew that one day I would write to you, begging you to reconsider that life in you because I lost mine…
Who better to tell you what the other side of abortion looks like than one who has tasted it?
It is not as pleasant or a fast solution as people want it to be.
The effects linger for longer than the 10 minutes in the doctor’s office…. effects that sometimes take years to heal if ever.
So many women still carry the guilt around for babies they never let see the light of day.
Please my dear sister, listen to God.
You have life inside of you; life that God has plans for.
I cannot make this heavy decision for you but I pray that whoever is in a place of making a choice makes a choice for God.
He will turn your life around believe me. I have seen Him do same for me even with my past mistakes.
He loves you and if you will let Him mold this situation, He will show you paths that you never could have fathomed on your own.
In times like this, the desire to help set women back on their feet again comes washing over me.
I desire to have the wherewithal to help single mothers; set them on their feet with God again and lead them back into right paths with God.
I pray that this becomes a part of “The Women At The Well” soon.
But first things first dear, if you are in this hard place right now, your best bet is to go to God, He won’t push you away, He awaits.
Can you say the prayer below?
Father I am so sorry for living my life outside of you.
I am sorry for my mistakes. Please come into my life. Jesus I need you.
Please come help me through this trying time, in Jesus name I have prayed, amen.
If you just prayed that prayer, it may seem like nothing has happened, but God has heard and He will help you.
I will be glad to help you in any way I can. An ear, an encourager…
Mail me at firstname.lastname@example.org
Hold tight to God now, you belong to Him.
You and your baby.
“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.”
Love and light,
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