I woke up this morning with my phone off, data plan expired, no light, and no way to upload today’s post..
I had normal blackberry subscription on my sim but with my phone still at repairs, I simply had no way to publish today’s post on the blog and so I found myself just complaining and grumbling to God in the kitchen.
Saying things like “I am tired, what kind of thing is this sef? See the way this thing has worked up my emotions, I can’t even put up today’s post with this frame of mind…”
And as soon as I caught the spirit of complaints coming on me, I just did an about turn and said “I am complaining… I am sorry Lord… but see this and that… I am sorry for complaining…”
And then I called one of my sisters who is just an amazing God-sent person to me…and the next thing was okay, let’s top up your phone…
I dropped that call and again lifted a silent “I am sorry Lord, while I was here murmuring, again, you were doing what you do best… looking out for me…”
Incidences like this between me and God are a regular occurrence… the lifting up of my heart to Him and Him in return holding it in His hands as a fragile vessel worth everything to Him.
I currently am mostly the only person at home during the day when my brother goes to work and I can tell you that the only person that keeps me sane is HIM.
Some persons wonder when I tell them that I rarely bored… there is just always something to do and work out between me and my Daddy.
Every moment is an interesting one.
Sometimes my brother thinks I am crazy.
I can be in the kitchen and laugh at a private joke I just had with God…
I remember looking out of the kitchen window one day and seeing my neighbor doing something I considered gross.. I scrunched my face up and then laughed out loud as I suddenly imagined God shaking His head at me and saying stuff like ‘what’s your business with that oneÂ now?”
I walk on the streets and spring forth gratitude in my heart to Him.
And I go all, thank you LORD, thank you.
Words would fail me to give details of my life before Christ Jesus and my life post Christ Jesus.
I have experienced fullness of life, joy and peace in ways that I cannot prescribe.
And somehow, I simply know that as long as I have God, I will be fine.
As long as I stay in Him, I will be fine.
What about you?
Do you have God?
Is He enough for you?
Is He enough to calm your fears and still your weary heart?
Do you currently enjoy a relationship with Him that keeps you secure in the storm?
Do you tell Him your fears, your like, your dislikes, your crushes?
Is your heart laid bare before Him?
Do you know that He loves you? Not in words alone but in practicality?
Do you want to experience this kind of relationship with Him?
I cannot claim to always be right on track in my relationship with God… if you are a regular blog reader, then you have read about my struggles, you have read about my tears even though you haven’t seen them…, and you have also seen my joy in Christ…
There is no turning back from this path with Christ.
After long stints outside of Him, wrong relationships and abortions, I finally found the One who completes me and I am never going to let Him go by His grace.
Sometimes I smile for no reason as I walk along the road… sometimes I burst out laughing when after a stint of crying on my bed asking Him for funds, I get up and the next thing is a message from someone with “it was laid in my heart to do this or that…”:
Sometimes, I go all out in awe as I pray for ideas and He just slips numerous ideas into my spirit.
I smile widely as He opens doors for me…
And I cry when He closes doors also… and thenÂ journal as I tell Him I trust Him and I know He is leading me the right way.
I stand in front of the mirror sometimes and smile as I trace His handwork…
Sometimes it gets hard, but I know that this relationship I have with Him can never be tradedÂ for anything else..
And as I thought about sharing this with us all today, I just wanted us who have a relationship with God not to ever ever take it for granted.
We can’t go back to where He brought us out from… no matter how hard things seem like they would get, we weren’t saved just to get good things from Him, He saved us to bring us into Himself.
And if you don’t know Jesus as your Lord and Saviour in a personal way… or if you knew Him once before and drifted away from Him, then please come back to the lover of your soul.
No one will fill you up like He does and I can boldly tell you that YOUR MARRIAGE WITH JESUS IS THE BEST RELATIONSHIP YOU CAN EVER HAVE.
Please say this prayer below…
Father I thank you for your sacrifice on the cross for me, thank you for willingly dieing for my sake.
I haven’t received the fullness of your gift of salvation and I am ready to do so today.\Please forgive me for straying away from you, please fill me up with yourself, let me experience completion in you.
Bring me into an intimacy with you as my husband and lover of my soul.
Manifest yourself to me Jesus and fillÂ my lifeÂ withÂ your sweetness.
Let me experience your love and let my love in return be poured out on you.
thank you Father, in Jesus name I have prayed, amen.
Begin to practiceÂ the presenceÂ of theÂ Lord in your life from today.
Bring Him into even the little things that happen to you, into your conversations, and into every aspect of your life.
I pray God makes Himself real to you and you will know God for yourself, not as religion, but in relationship, in Jesus name, amen.
“And this, so that I may know Him [experientially, becoming more thoroughly acquainted with Him, understanding the remarkable wonders of His Person more completely] and [in that same way experience] the power of His resurrection [which overflows and is active in believers], and [that I may share] the fellowship of His sufferings, by beingÂ continually conformed [inwardly into His likeness even] to His death [dying as He did];so that I may attain to the resurrection [that will raise me] from the dead.
Till Our Next Time On Here,
P:S: Just for fun, I found this video on my laptop of some of the stuff I used to do in my small
youthÂ corper room last year… singing with my scratchy voice alone in my room 🙂
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