Jesus, I Don’t Love You Enough

Few days back I found myself crying after I read a devotional from Prov31 Ministries.

I was crying “Jesus I don’t love you enough, come be my greatest desire”.

You see, I have been wrapped by so many needs in this season – valid needs and it seems like every time I sit before the Lord, my heart is crying out to Him, “Lord supply all my needs as you have promised to do”.

Over and over He comes through for me, but still something is still scared to free fall into His hands.
I apologize over and over again “Lord, I am sorry that I trust you in so little ways.. even after I see all you are doing, still I am still so scared to trust you fully…”

I realized as I read that Prov31 devotional that Jesus has not been my greatest need. I cannot sincerely say that Jesus has been my greatest need. My needs have been my greatest need, maybe even the errands He has sent me on have been my greatest need but Him.
And so I repent.

So many things keep struggling to take His place in my heart.
His first place is in contention with so many things – each seeming valid and viable but totally irrelevant in the grand scheme of things.

I need to go back to what matters.

I don’t love Jesus enough and I want Him to help me rectify this anomaly.

But it seems like it would have to take a conscious decision from me, otherwise Jesus as first place would be buried again under excuses.

So I didn’t understand why I had such a tug to do this post (it was supposed to be up yesterday, but I had no chance to use my laptop) .

I just found the reason for the pull to do this now.

Here it is:

For this month of March on the blog, we shall be studying Jesus and every Bible study on here will be on each new discovery that we make.

Feel free to study along with me on your own.
We will focus on the book of Luke and also meditate on our anchor scripture below:

‘[For my determined purpose is] that I may know Him [that I may progressively become more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him, perceiving and recognizing and understanding the wonders of His Person more strongly and more clearly],…’
-Philippians 3:10, AMP

There is another part to this passage but we will deal with only the first part this month. Knowing His person more clearly and strongly.
We will be praying each week as we study, Holy Spirit reveal Jesus to me.
Jesus I don’t love you enough, come be my greatest desire. COME BE MY GREATEST DESIRE.

So see us all here next week Wednesday God willing as God reveals Himself to us and we set aright the priorities in our lives and hearts in Jesus name, amen.

Love,
Frances

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