One of the upsides of having the Holy Spirit within you is that you are almost never down except you want to be. If you are willing to listen, He whispers words of encouragement to you, comfort and faith to you even in tense situations and that’s what He did to me yesterday when I saw my result.
I was however not okay with that. I wanted to feel all the mixed emotions.
Confusion, doubt and disappointment…
I had imagined screaming with my testimony of first class, pasting it on my blog because I just couldn’t speak because of gratefulness clogging my throat…
Well, I couldn’t speak when it indeed came out alright, just not with gratefulness clogging my throat, but with a mish-mash of a number of emotions… I was numb. Grateful, but numb so I let myself feel the emotions. I let myself feel pain, I let myself feel doubt, I let myself feel confusion… then I let myself feel grateful.
Sad because the first class didn’t come, confused because I thought faith would do it, doubt because it didn’t fit in with what God said He has for me… then trust, trust at who He is.
I had planned to just update my blog with my screenshot of my first class result as my testimony and I am still going to do same today, just not a result of first class.lol
Why am I still going to update the less than first class as a testimony??
Because I’m thinking, do I only claim the testimony when it goes the way I want, or claim it also when it goes the way I don’t understand? What kind of Christian will I be if I keep it quiet because it’s not what I want?
I shared my testimony of 2:1 from University so why not the pass from Law School?
I had 2:1 in University and I’ve seen why God wanted me to have that, to reach out to others, and now I have pass from law school, I don’t understand why yet but I trust that it all falls into God’s plans for me.
I know that He specializes in turning the little in our hands to much and I am excited to see just how He turns this into something that I never thought of in my wildest dreams.
So my beloved readers, I give you my result-my testimony!
I am still grateful. I’ve realized something, I cannot only thank God when things go my way, I will thank Him even when they don’t go my way. Why? Because He is still on the throne.
I believe that God allows us to have and face that which He will use in our life’s journey and I am content to just sit still and let Him work it out.
I believe I will look up and say aha! I know why I graduated with pass someday. Crazy? No, true.
I’m still numb but I am thankful and grateful. I feel the Spirit in Paul that said we are grateful in nothing and grateful in much in me right now. I feel the entire weight of 1thessalonians 5:18 right now.
I am grateful with this pass Lord, just like I would have been grateful with first class.
I have faith enough in you to know that you will also use this for good. I trust you. I trust you. I trust you. I trust you.
To the newest crop of soon to be called lawyers, I say Congratulations! See you all at Abuja on November 25th.
For those who didn’t make it…I’m am certain, I am certain that God’s still got you.
“Thank [God] in everything [no matter what the circumstances may be, be thankful and give thanks], for this is the will of God for you [who are] in Christ Jesus [the Revealer and Mediator of that will].”-1Thessalonians 5:18.
It will be hard, really hard, but please thank God still. *hugs*
And for those wondering why I am so open with these stuffs on my blog? Read my about blog page. The essence of me/this blog is not to only wow you with the big perfect things, but also for you to see God in ALL imperfect things.
PS:Can I please stop getting all the pings and calls about bar finals results now? Read my blog and get the info about my grades and oh, if they aren’t reading this right now, anyone reading this, please share this and let it get to all. Save my battery. Lol.
Agnes AuduOctober 16, 2014 at 1:09 pm
Wow….im speechless!! if it ain’t d daughter of encouragement.im grateful to God 4 making our paths cross,U bring out d best in pple and make dem believe extraordinary of demselves.i hv refused to talk abt my grade cos of d disappointment I feel,lyk God let me dwn,lyk my faith ws a joke,lyk hw less God tinks of me and how unloved I feel.but reading ur blog everyday gives me a sense of purpose nd d nid to understand God’s ways beta.i luv u Honey and God bless u real good!
Frances OkoroOctober 16, 2014 at 1:40 pm
Agnes dearie, I got teary eyed while reading your comment.
You do know that God loves you crazy right? He can never think less of you cuz of bar finals results, His love isn’t that fickle. He loves you to the moon and back, He loves you be you illiterate or literate, He loves you crazy..
I am glad that these words that God has put in me helps us all..and I am excited at what you will say God is using these results to do in the years to come
I love you too babes. *hugs*
elohoOctober 16, 2014 at 6:16 pm
My very dear Frances,
I celebrate you and I thank God for your journey. I am so certain that God is in you, with you and for you and so this is all working together for your good. One thing I have learned in my walk with God is that He is certainly taking you to an expected end. He just may not take you on the path you envisioned. Destination is certain! Journey is not.
So I bless God for you, I know you will have days when you question the process but believe God and His principles and know without a doubt that this all will glorify God. Thank you for making your life an open book to celebrate God. God never leaves any unrewarded and He will beautify your life and complete your testimony. We shall be witnesses and shall celebrate God’s strategy when He permits us to finally see it. He does an amazing job and along this path, we trust His competence and character. God with you is all you need!!!
The Holy Spirit will continually use you as a broken vessel to exude the fragrance of God’s grace.
Love you darling and welcome to your best days yet.
Frances OkoroOctober 16, 2014 at 6:32 pm
Funny how I was just re-reading your dm to me yesterday and was thinking of tweeting a “thank you” to you when I got notification of this.
All I can say is I feel an overwhelming gratitude for people like you that God has placed on my path Eloho.
God bless you.
I love you much too, thank you very much.
MobolajiOctober 16, 2014 at 7:08 pm
You know just how to encourage! His grace is sufficient and that same grace is taking you places.
Frances OkoroOctober 16, 2014 at 8:25 pm
Thank you Mobolaji.
DamilolaOctober 16, 2014 at 7:27 pm
Frances dear, I salute you for your faith , unwavering hope and your courage. You are definitely going places and believe me, with or without your certificate you will get there. God wants to showcase your life and your story becomes even sweeter and more inspiring when they realise its not about your grade but about God. So dear , keep this attitude and don’t allow anything steal your joy. *hugs*
Frances OkoroOctober 16, 2014 at 8:28 pm
Big big and tight hugs right back Damilola…
And I’m ready,let the God colours in me shine brightly…let it shine.
glowingscenesOctober 16, 2014 at 7:47 pm
Do you know I actually wrote something similar last week and this post just brings it to my remembrance!!! Can you imagine. I wasn’t even thinking of posting it till sometime later but seeing this has given me the urge to do so which is coming up tomorrow. This isn’t the end of it all, that’s what I know. And this cannot stop you from exalting God because your joy goes beyond this. Your joy is so much more. It’s not dependent on the results(Which God definitely has a purpose for, cos WE KNOW THAT ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR GOOD) As Christians, we’ll face great challenges. Some people may have even started exalting God that ‘He is good because their results were good;. I used to hear this a lot back in school and it really made me feel bad when I had prayed and studied so much and yet, it wasn’t what I wanted or expected. The beauty of it all is what God is going to use it to do. Sometimes God even wants to glorify himself in our lives just to show that HE IS THE ONE who can take us places, not our results or things we’ve done. But by His power and His grace. So that His name may be glorified.
Keep basking in the joy of your saviour jare, and keep being the woman God wants you to be. Your worth isn’t in first class or Pass. It’s in who God sees you as and what He has planned for your life. You’re confident because you trust God and He’s got you.
By the way, the Godfidence part was stolen..hehe
Frances OkoroOctober 16, 2014 at 8:34 pm
If I could see you physically right now Itunu..I’ve give you plenty plenty warm hugs!!
Joy isn’t circumstantial, the joy that comes from God doesn’t only depend on the good we get/see…this is not the end and truly, I am excited, excited at what God is going to turn this around to..i don’t know what He’s got planned but I trust him enough to know that He’s got this. He’s got this.
Will look out for your post tomorrow.
Lemme sign off with your signature since you didn’t put it on here.lol
1 + The OneOctober 17, 2014 at 8:59 am
Congratulations Frances!! Whoop whoop! Proud of you.. Thank God Barrister Okoro.. Now it’s time to rock that wig and gown come the 25th! 😀 xx
Frances OkoroOctober 17, 2014 at 12:03 pm
Ayo…funny, I just thought of you.of how nice it will be to have a friend like you, you know,real friend that would stay for a long time to come.#randomthoughts.
And thank you, thank you! I feel your excitement through your comment.love the positive vibe, a welcome different change…lol
Cuz It’s funny how there are less congratulations at “pass” than at “something higher”.lolsss.
KELECHIOctober 17, 2014 at 11:56 am
Its so good to know that God has a reason for everything. Faith in God is not something we use as an excuse or sheild from the consequences of our actions. Faith makes us understand that God has our back(s) at all times and in all seasons. Frances, thank you so much for sharing!
Frances OkoroOctober 17, 2014 at 12:05 pm
Yes it’s amazing Kelechi, the “I got your back gidigba thing” that God has going on for us…hehe, #just priceless!
AdaezeOctober 17, 2014 at 9:11 pm
Congratulations dear, I thank God for seeing you through all the rigours of law school. I’ve been a silent reader of your blog for a while and you’ve been a blessing to me. I had to spend an extra year in school and I remember the pain I felt, I thought I’d never understand why “I” had to spill, why God allowed it to happen. Today the reasons keep unfolding and I cannot help but praise God for letting me go through that.
Come Nov 25th we’ll have a huge celebration, right?
Frances OkoroOctober 18, 2014 at 2:28 am
Yes we will have a huge celebration by God’s grace Adaeze!
And I’m sooo glad that you’ve had the “aha moment” when everything just clicks in as to why God had to take you through it all. Thank you for sharing that, God bless you.
+silent reader,first time commenter eh? We hope you stay on the commenter’s side now,lol.
I appreciate you.
Dr. NOctober 18, 2014 at 12:14 pm
You passed! Yay! Champagne juice, lol. I once heard a pastor tell someone mourning an injury to rejoice as he had no idea what d devil really had in mind which was to send him 6 feet below. Consider yourself a victor. In years to come, when u feel nervous about your grade, remind d devil u were not among d numerous who didn’t make it. He’ll scurry off like a rat. Love u dear. Keep your head up
Frances OkoroOctober 18, 2014 at 6:45 pm
My Dr of life..Dr N…
Thank you very much.
*plenty, plenty, plenty love…
PS:shebi you go send your own champagne to me on nov 25th? Lol
UjeOctober 18, 2014 at 1:45 pm
Congrats dear Frances because you passed!! God is cooking something sweet for you I can tell you. At this point the grade doesn’t matter but what matters is the Lord took you through regardless of the massive failure, you are going somewhere dear…be of good cheer!
Frances OkoroOctober 18, 2014 at 6:47 pm
Thank you mega much Uje! Love your analysis…I’m mega excited at what God’s cooking up too. *rubs hands in glee*. hehe.
Frances OkoroOctober 18, 2014 at 6:51 pm
Thank you Uje..
*rubs hand in glee*…God’s always got something brewing, yes, He does 🙂
TunrayoOctober 18, 2014 at 6:11 pm
Big hug to you both @ Agnes and Frances. Tried reaching you yesterday Agy but frances has written what I would have told you. God’s love is everlasting. Nothing changes it. He has written the chapters of our lives and knows the reason behind whatever happens to us, in the end it may not seem like it now but everything is working for our good. Though I had a very good grade when I was in law school, I know how it feels to have exercised faith and still “have your hopes dashed”. God has you, always will.
Frances OkoroOctober 18, 2014 at 6:50 pm
Thank you for your kind words Tunrayo…
And it always does seem like the “hopes were dashed” at first, but I’m getting to realize that that’s just what we think..we don’t know the quarter/half of what God’s even got planned…#He’s got us, ALWAYS.
Thank you for your wishes, for reaching out.
Temitope BanksOctober 19, 2014 at 2:18 am
Congratulations dear. Higher heights.
Tope recently posted “pFailure is not final.My Nigerian Law School Experience
Frances OkoroOctober 19, 2014 at 6:53 am
Thank you Temitope, just read your experience on your blog too.thanks for sharing 🙂
VickyNovember 23, 2014 at 12:35 pm
Like i always say, there’s a reason for all things God allows to come our way and when we Finally understand the reason, we jump and say thank you Baba.
Congratulations barrister Frances, i hope to get there soon but for now I’ll look for all the troubles i can find 🙂
Frances OkoroNovember 23, 2014 at 2:11 pm
Your comments always make me smile Vicky…
Before I even know the reason, I will start jumping, thank you Jesus! God is always faithful!
Happy sunday girl!
+find plenty trouble and come and be dropping the cash like it’s hot oh.lol
VickyNovember 23, 2014 at 7:44 pm
Lol! free troubles Joor
thegracedmisfitAugust 20, 2015 at 2:50 pm
🙂 May God BLESS you, Francis. You’re just amazing.
Frances OkoroAugust 21, 2015 at 10:56 am
God bless you bigly too the gracdmisfit!