Happy new week blog hearts!
I’d love to appreciate everyone who checked on me or at least “secretly wondered” about why I didn’t blog last week(in Itunu’s words 🙂
Thank you for your care.
I’ll tell you guys why I went AWOL in a minute but before then, I think it’s expected that I tell you guys the outcome of the Nigerian blog awards.
I know that some of you voted for me and it’s so long overdue that I at least thank you all and say what’s up.
No, Imperfectly perfect lives didn’t win, but yes, thank you all for nominations and votes.
Those I spoke to personally know that I didn’t even want to participate in votes and all but I appreciate the fact that I have got people out there who think that the words on this blog help them enough for them to think it worthy of being nominated/voted for.
So back to the reason why I was off blogging last week.
I would just lay it down and be REAL.
I have been everywhere and nowhere of recent.
I mean, I took a break and went to Lagos last two weeks, came back to Ekiti for NYSC clearance and then went off to Akure for a conference again – all in the space of two weeks.
And throughout those weeks, my mind was absolutely not conditioned to do anything that I was supposed to be doing this year which is to #WalkInPurpose.
It’s been a long battle of laziness wrapped with guilt and indiscipline.
Let’s see if I can lay it all out for us.
I had zero motivation to publish anything.
I just took a break for absolutely no reason even when I know that writing on this blog is a ministry/my using my gift to glorify God.
I didn’t even work on the eBook that I am supposed to be working on.
I didn’t open the document on my phone at all.
I have about 3 incomplete/haven’t “started it at Â all” writings that I am supposed to send to others and I didn’t even touch them.
On Purpose/Awakening youths in secondary schools
This is even the worse. Yes, schools were on holidays during the time I just tuned off(thank God for this) but I also had zero motivation to do this. Or rather, I was simply distracted/lazy/not just up for anything.
It’s sad because if schools were in session, it still would have taken me a lot for me to get up and do what God has laid in my heart to do for this year.
On weight loss
Don’t even get me started on this.
I seriously don’t even want to stand on the scale.
I’m certain that I have added weight and if I haven’t, I haven’t lost a kg in 2months.
My eating habits have been wack.
Eating any and everything bad for me and I didn’t exercise throughout the time when I was at Lagos but was constantly eating late night meals.
Progress on this is bad, bad and bad.
I basically closed up what I was selling and traveled and I am yet to open up again since I came back and traveled again to Akure.
So I just haven’t started up anything at all again.
My finances have been wack.
I spent a lot on traveling, even went to (Idanre hills at Akure) on corper’s allowee and except something happens(which I pray it will), I might not meet my goal to save this month.
My living expenses sef will be by faith…
So you guys see, I practically lost it and went down the road where I am not supposed to go.
My goals for this year didn’t include all this “totally loosing it”.
Granted I got the rest I needed and all, but they were all gotten at the expense of my loosing sight of what my year is all about.
I thought that I would breeze through the year practically on top of my game, inspiring you all to #WalkInPurpose even as I do same but somehow, I just lost it.
And then I found this…
I sat down after my whole adventure at Idanre hills(just chill dears, I will write about this in my 12trip challenge chronicles) and I just opened my Bible to have a little fellowship with God and found this…
“Donât you realize that in a race everyone runs, but only one person gets the prize? So run to win! All athletes are disciplined in their training. They do it to win a prize that will fade away, but we do it for an eternal prize.Â So I run with purpose in every step. I am not just shadowboxing. I discipline my body like an athlete, training it to do what it should. Otherwise, I fear that after preaching to others I myself might be disqualified.”
It was like a light bulb moment for me.
Every issue I have with drifting into the loose end with my #WalkInPurpose and goals for this year can be resolved with that verse.
Paul says so I run with purpose in every step, disciplining my body to do what it should, lest I become disqualified after preaching to others.
I am supposed to run with purpose in all the goals I have set for this year.
My body shouldn’t have control over me, I should bring it under subjection to my spirit and to what I am supposed to do.
I can’t write my goals for the year and make it all public, write monday’s inspirational drive every week and then end up not achieving anything at the end of the year (oh, how pathetic will that be?)
I can’t write and inspire you guys to walk in purpose when I am not doing same.
So what can I do?
Bring the body under subjection!
I feel like buying junks when I know that my budget won’t take it? I should instead speak to that long throat in my body and bring it down!
I don’t feel like exercising?
Well sweetie, you still have 9kg to get to your goal weight for this year so get on it already!
And oh, you don’t want to go to the schools to speak to them on purpose?
Well, how dare you just throw away the purpose that God has placed in your heart to do?
Where else will you find fulfiment but in where God has placed you?
You can’t just drift along this year doing whatever you will/what you please, get on track already Frances!
So loves, the above is my story and what has been up for the past two weeks(possibly more, that’s why I have been missing out on publishing posts), but maybe someone out there also has a story like mine.
Let’s hold each other’s hands through this shall we?
You feel like you’ve skidded off the road and it’s not even up to the 6th month of the year yet.
Well, just lay it all out like I have done up there, forgive yourself and let go.
Then let’s eat up and soak up the Word in 1Corinthians 9:24-27 and let it take root in us.
Our bodies just want to while away precious time but we can’t allow that can we?
I am starting afresh this monday.
Writing et al, I wanna get it all on fleek again and whatever your life is supposed to include this year, you can make a decision to get it on fleek again.
Let’s stop shadow boxing and walk in purpose in every step we take.
I am tired of feeling like I am not doing what I am supposed to be doing, enough of the touring around town and emptying my allawee(*tears), time to sit up and take charge.
2015 isn’t supposed to go this way and I refuse to let it just slide by with me being all lazy.
By God’s grace all categories on this blog like I outlined in our blog plans for 2015 begins this week.
I have plans to also get the other areas of my life that need to be set straight on track.
And plans to really make sure that that scripture shared above soaks into me.
For everyone who needs to hit restart on their goals/God’s purpose for their lives even though we are almost at the middle of the year, do hit it with me.
Have a great week of New Beginnings ahead,
P.S: This isn’t a goal evaluation post, I will do that in June with me hopefully and prayerfully fully back on track!
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