Happy new week blog hearts!
I’d love to appreciate everyone who checked on me or at least “secretly wondered” about why I didn’t blog last week(in Itunu’s words 🙂
Thank you for your care.
I’ll tell you guys why I went AWOL in a minute but before then, I think it’s expected that I tell you guys the outcome of the Nigerian blog awards.
I know that some of you voted for me and it’s so long overdue that I at least thank you all and say what’s up.
No, Imperfectly perfect lives didn’t win, but yes, thank you all for nominations and votes.
Those I spoke to personally know that I didn’t even want to participate in votes and all but I appreciate the fact that I have got people out there who think that the words on this blog help them enough for them to think it worthy of being nominated/voted for.
So back to the reason why I was off blogging last week.
I would just lay it down and be REAL.
I have been everywhere and nowhere of recent.
I mean, I took a break and went to Lagos last two weeks, came back to Ekiti for NYSC clearance and then went off to Akure for a conference again – all in the space of two weeks.
And throughout those weeks, my mind was absolutely not conditioned to do anything that I was supposed to be doing this year which is to #WalkInPurpose.
It’s been a long battle of laziness wrapped with guilt and indiscipline.
Let’s see if I can lay it all out for us.
I had zero motivation to publish anything.
I just took a break for absolutely no reason even when I know that writing on this blog is a ministry/my using my gift to glorify God.
I didn’t even work on the eBook that I am supposed to be working on.
I didn’t open the document on my phone at all.
I have about 3 incomplete/haven’t “started it at Â all” writings that I am supposed to send to others and I didn’t even touch them.
On Purpose/Awakening youths in secondary schools
This is even the worse. Yes, schools were on holidays during the time I just tuned off(thank God for this) but I also had zero motivation to do this. Or rather, I was simply distracted/lazy/not just up for anything.
It’s sad because if schools were in session, it still would have taken me a lot for me to get up and do what God has laid in my heart to do for this year.
On weight loss
Don’t even get me started on this.
I seriously don’t even want to stand on the scale.
I’m certain that I have added weight and if I haven’t, I haven’t lost a kg in 2months.
My eating habits have been wack.
Eating any and everything bad for me and I didn’t exercise throughout the time when I was at Lagos but was constantly eating late night meals.
Progress on this is bad, bad and bad.
I basically closed up what I was selling and traveled and I am yet to open up again since I came back and traveled again to Akure.
So I just haven’t started up anything at all again.
My finances have been wack.
I spent a lot on traveling, even went to (Idanre hills at Akure) on corper’s allowee and except something happens(which I pray it will), I might not meet my goal to save this month.
My living expenses sef will be by faith…
So you guys see, I practically lost it and went down the road where I am not supposed to go.
My goals for this year didn’t include all this “totally loosing it”.
Granted I got the rest I needed and all, but they were all gotten at the expense of my loosing sight of what my year is all about.
I thought that I would breeze through the year practically on top of my game, inspiring you all to #WalkInPurpose even as I do same but somehow, I just lost it.
And then I found this…
I sat down after my whole adventure at Idanre hills(just chill dears, I will write about this in my 12trip challenge chronicles) and I just opened my Bible to have a little fellowship with God and found this…
“Donât you realize that in a race everyone runs, but only one person gets the prize? So run to win! All athletes are disciplined in their training. They do it to win a prize that will fade away, but we do it for an eternal prize.Â So I run with purpose in every step. I am not just shadowboxing. I discipline my body like an athlete, training it to do what it should. Otherwise, I fear that after preaching to others I myself might be disqualified.”
It was like a light bulb moment for me.
Every issue I have with drifting into the loose end with my #WalkInPurpose and goals for this year can be resolved with that verse.
Paul says so I run with purpose in every step, disciplining my body to do what it should, lest I become disqualified after preaching to others.
I am supposed to run with purpose in all the goals I have set for this year.
My body shouldn’t have control over me, I should bring it under subjection to my spirit and to what I am supposed to do.
I can’t write my goals for the year and make it all public, write monday’s inspirational drive every week and then end up not achieving anything at the end of the year (oh, how pathetic will that be?)
I can’t write and inspire you guys to walk in purpose when I am not doing same.
So what can I do?
Bring the body under subjection!
I feel like buying junks when I know that my budget won’t take it? I should instead speak to that long throat in my body and bring it down!
I don’t feel like exercising?
Well sweetie, you still have 9kg to get to your goal weight for this year so get on it already!
And oh, you don’t want to go to the schools to speak to them on purpose?
Well, how dare you just throw away the purpose that God has placed in your heart to do?
Where else will you find fulfiment but in where God has placed you?
You can’t just drift along this year doing whatever you will/what you please, get on track already Frances!
So loves, the above is my story and what has been up for the past two weeks(possibly more, that’s why I have been missing out on publishing posts), but maybe someone out there also has a story like mine.
Let’s hold each other’s hands through this shall we?
You feel like you’ve skidded off the road and it’s not even up to the 6th month of the year yet.
Well, just lay it all out like I have done up there, forgive yourself and let go.
Then let’s eat up and soak up the Word in 1Corinthians 9:24-27 and let it take root in us.
Our bodies just want to while away precious time but we can’t allow that can we?
I am starting afresh this monday.
Writing et al, I wanna get it all on fleek again and whatever your life is supposed to include this year, you can make a decision to get it on fleek again.
Let’s stop shadow boxing and walk in purpose in every step we take.
I am tired of feeling like I am not doing what I am supposed to be doing, enough of the touring around town and emptying my allawee(*tears), time to sit up and take charge.
2015 isn’t supposed to go this way and I refuse to let it just slide by with me being all lazy.
By God’s grace all categories on this blog like I outlined in our blog plans for 2015 begins this week.
I have plans to also get the other areas of my life that need to be set straight on track.
And plans to really make sure that that scripture shared above soaks into me.
For everyone who needs to hit restart on their goals/God’s purpose for their lives even though we are almost at the middle of the year, do hit it with me.
Have a great week of New Beginnings ahead,
P.S: This isn’t a goal evaluation post, I will do that in June with me hopefully and prayerfully fully back on track!
Do subscribe to blog below and let’s hit our goals together…
Highly FavoredMay 11, 2015 at 3:48 pm
Hey Francis, take it easy on yourself. Ensure you have not taken on too much at the same time, inspite of all the good we want to do for ourselves and others, it is important that we don’t overload and overwhelm ourselves. I pray you find your internal motivating drive again, one step/plan/project at a time get your balance (complete it), add another step/plan/project, complete it, stay balanced.
Frances OkoroMay 13, 2015 at 6:01 pm
Thank you so much highly favored.
Will do exactly that, will tick them off one step at a time.
Thank you 🙂
kekeMay 11, 2015 at 8:08 pm
I am with you in prayers Frances. Don’t beat yourself up. Just keep on walking.
Frances OkoroMay 12, 2015 at 8:51 pm
Thank you so much Keke, prayers really needed!
MobolajiMay 11, 2015 at 8:49 pm
Ahh Frances! We are truly sisters! I kept checking if you had posted too and I just secretly knew we were going through similar things. Thanks for being honest jare, no need to fake!
God help us not to fall at the way side. We will finish strong!
Frances OkoroMay 12, 2015 at 9:06 pm
Ohhhh Mobolaji, this connection btw us eh, na highest.
Glad to have found a sis in you…
And amen and amen, oh God help us not to fall by the wayside..amen and amen!
Temitope BANKSMay 11, 2015 at 9:10 pm
Pastor Frances lol, its a marathon not a hundred meter dash, its ok to tune off sometimes,but always ensure you get back on track.
Frances OkoroMay 12, 2015 at 8:34 pm
That soothes me Temi. Just ensure that I get back on track and take it easy on myself.thank you!
And this your “seeing on Pastor thing”
glowingscenesMay 13, 2015 at 8:18 pm
Wanted to say the same thing Highly favored said. I’ve even been considering how to put up a post related to this of at God is teaching me about goals and plans and if it’s just our ‘mindset’ that we have to attain certain goals. And so when this goal isn’t birthed, we begin to feel sad, angry and depressed. The truth my dear Frances is the God who has called you to do certain things will give you grace and sustain you long enough to achieve them. If any of them come to light, to God be the glory. SO please, just take one day at a time and don’t overdo it or you’ll just break down. Jesus said “Come unto me all ye that labour and are heavy laden and I’ll give you rest. So we are to seek Jesus so that we will find rest or we will be feeling under-fulfilled.
Bless you dear! It is well with you. Hugs**
glowingscenesMay 13, 2015 at 8:25 pm
And LOL@ secretly wondering. Well done o.
Frances OkoroMay 14, 2015 at 10:36 pm
Thanks Itunu…read your comment like thrice now, trying to get it to sink in.
Would love to read the post, (goals that are our own mindsets?, need more on that) do put it up and that scripture is a soothing one too.
This whole particular stuff here on this blogpost basically has to do more with laziness/just tuning off…which now from comments, I realize that might happen, but we should pick up again…
Ultimately, I will surmise from your comment that the rest we seek(whether we achieve the goals or not) should and can only come from God.
Thank you for sharing..again, write that post biko