I didn’t quite grasp the entire reason why God asked me to sit at His feet at the exact time when my recently released book should have gone live on July 6th.
I still don’t get it totally but I now have an inkling on some certain aspects of it.
You see, if I had released the book on July 6th, I would have done so with a filthy heart.
I wrote in this post of how I was playing a detective and placing tabs on how many people had subscribed to get the free chapter of the book.
If God hadn’t put a wrench on my July 6th book release plan, I would have done the same thing too.
I had said and thought I meant it at the time that the book was all about God but my actions were telling another story.
If it’s really about Jesus, why are you checking to see how many people are interested in what you wrote?
Why can’t you be content in the fact that even if it’s one person, Jesus would work in their lives?
My heart was filthy and I am glad that God worked on it.
I didn’t know what that one week break did for me till I released the book and “congratulations on your book” didn’t mean anything to me.
Don’t get me wrong.
I was(am) overwhelmed at your support and encouraging words.
But I got to the point where my reaching out to bloggers for reviews wasn’t because I wanted my book to be “out there” but I truly wanted lives to come in contact with the truth that God would dish out into their lives through the book.
I got to the point where “the book is wow comments” didn’t do nothing to my psyche.
It truly became “Oh Jesus, it’s all about you.
This isn’t about human praise, I could care less about that… I just really want men to come to the light in you”.
I am glad that God set my motives right before the book went live.
I am glad that God keeps correcting me and stuffs in me even when I don’t know that I am doing anything wrong.
Indeed, this is the reason why David said inÂ Psalm 139.23-24
“Search me, O God, and know my heart;test me and know my anxious thoughts. Point out anything in me that offends you,and lead me along the path of everlasting life.”
Why did David pray this prayer?
Because it’s only God who sees the heart.
We sometimes think that we are all good but when push comes to shove, the real truth is revealed in our actions.
Paul said in 1Thessalonians 2:4-6 and it hit me.
“For we speak as messengers approved by God to be entrusted with the Good News. Our purpose is to please God, not people. He alone examines the motives of our hearts. … As for human praise, we have never sought it from you or anyone else.”
Dear Christian writers/bloggers, we must all come to that point too in this ministry for God.
A point where we check our motives before putting out any article, book or anything at all.
A point where we really and sincerely want to spread forth God’s fame and not ours.
A point when our name on a book cover/article mean nothing but that God is working through us.
Am I there yet?
But God is molding me into that total state of perfection in Him little by little.
He started with this book and I love what He did.
Avail yourself to be used by God – not only with your gifts, but yield of your motives and goals and aims to that of Himself.
That it’s all about Him and not about us.
All about Him and not about me.
God help us all.
Have an awesome week ahead.
P.S- thank you all for the love on the book release last week.
For facebook shares, PMS, DMS, tweets, book reviews on blogs, interviews(which haven’t happened yet, oya reach me to get this done, lol)…thank you!
If you have issues with downloading your copy and you are subscribed to blog, comment below and I will send you your copy. Or send me a mail at firstname.lastname@example.org
And please do share the book with someone, spread the word… I tell you all, there is a need for the book “Chastity For Men”.
I don’t even fully grasp it yet but lives need this book.
So please share with your friends, send to their mails, send via bluetooth, Â flash share, etc… thank you!