And its December,we are almost at the end of another glorious year no less and I know this with all of my soul.
I have being a recipient of awesome testimonies from God this year and one would think that with all the blessings God bestowed on me and all mine this year I’ll be suspended in a state of gratitude right?
But no,I’ve been plagued with feelings of terrible self-doubts since last week.
I have wondered and wallowed in the thoughts that maybe,just maybe, “I aint all that after all”
Maybe those words I heard God say to me that He’s taking me places was just my mind playing tricks on me.
It hasn’t helped thata work/writing of mine was strung in the same sentence as bland/rote.
It hasn’t helped that I got a seemingly non-testimony at this near end of the year(I say seemingly,because all things worketh for my good and I believe I will share a testimony as regards this on this blog next year).
It also hasn’t helped that,for someone like me that give off vibes and live a life of positivity,belief in a glorious future,and faith in God above all circumstances,I almost have no one to talk to when I have doubts like this except God,so I have basically been stewing,steaming and wallowing in these thoughts all alone(aha,now you see that I have my moments too)…
I have had to read imperfectlyperfect92.wordpress.com/2013/09/27/am-i-enough/ on my blog more times that I care to count.
And I have had cause to ask myself these questions countless times in the past week- What do you do when you get a no,its not/you are not good enough? Slither back into a hole and forget what could have been if you try harder,or continue on the road with a resolute yes I am GREAT enough?
Frances,what do you do when the situation doesn’t turn out as planned?
When it seems like there’s no headway of ‘yes’ anywhere?
When the only light at the end of the tunnel seems like darkness itself?
What do you do?
Cower down in a bundle of shameful acceptance?
Or reply with a series of yes,it will work out,my God is still working on my behalf?
I have thought about this long and hard,and I have decided not to slither into a hole and accept defeat.
I have decided not to throw my hands up in feeble acceptance of what it seems to be.
I have decided to fight back with my jaws set hard.
I have decided to reel back series of yes,I am GREAT enough and work towards it!
I have decided to trust the voice that resounds so deep in my spirit,the voice that said-
“I predestined you Frances,you were created for a reason,molded for such a time like this,for a higher purpose than where you are right now. You are not just a simple soul drifting through earth,you are a vessel for me and at the appointed time,your light shall shine”
Now,I have worked past/I am working past these self doubts (hopefully and prayer fully) and I thought to share this for everyone out like me.
The year is gradually coming to an end,and a lot of us are taking stock of how it all went down.
There may be feelings of doubt,inadequacies and thoughts that you may never get there.
This post is for everyone who has doubts about their self,their destiny,their purpose or about that situation…
Are you going to hide behind a hole of shameful acceptance,or are going to join me with jaws set hard to reply back with series of I am enough!
I can conquer!
I trust you Lord!
I am GREAT enough!
And despite what the circumstances suggest now,You are taking me places!
Our response to these unwholesome thoughts makes all the difference.
The year may be drawing to an end,but our lives has not ended.
God still has more in store for us.
“I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned outâplans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.-Jer 29:11”
Together,Let’s all say it and believe it.
Let our response to these doubts be a- “yes! My Life hasn’t ended yet! God has it all planned out and I’ll get there!”
Like www.eziaha.com proposed series for January says,we will testify!
Do not let satan steal your joy. Function in a realm of gratitude this season,and I am very certain that if you focus on your blessings,those doubts will have no place to fester in.
Compliments of the season Dearies. Please spread abroad the love of Christ. Let it shine in you and through you to all you meet.
I love you all.
PS: To my friends reading this,please no “oh,why didn’t you talk to me”…
I wrote this last week when satan was toying with my thoughts and as at right now,I can say that I am working above it all!
Greatness is in us,and it will shine forth! We will all meet at the apex of God’s purpose for our lives,Amen.
tenderoniiDecember 23, 2013 at 4:20 pm
you know Frances,…I read this post out loud, something I don’t usually do, normally I would read through my eyes. At the end,..I bursted out in tongues and after 30secs or more,.I sed “Hallelujah” That’s all I can say, the Holy Ghost has sed all I needed to say in the Spirit.
One thing that I always find my self saying to me at points like this is “Hannah, It cannot get worse, that same spirit that raised Christ from the dead lives in me,..what else do I need. But I must say to everyone that might find themselves at this point right now, “the path of the righteous is as a shinning light, it shineth brighter and brighter, unto that perfect day” Except you are not the righteous. But then again, WHY DID JESUS COME?.This consciousness must be birthed deep into your spirit and you’ll see that nothing can stop you and like I’ll always say to myself, “It is not over until you win”.
Thank you Frances, I could feel the need for you to spread this good news. I’m glad you are over that now. Those testimonies you shared on my post is just a tip of the Ice berg, God will def surpass your needs, in this coming year and that thing u are anticipating is not far, just kip speaking God’s word concerning you on that matter, and it will surface. kip watering your seed with his words and the harvest is surely near. God bless you dear. Love you, muah.
imperfectlyperfectDecember 23, 2013 at 4:57 pm
Oh Hannah,plenty,many hugs to you.
I read your comment like thrice already.thank you,thank you.indeed,our paths will shine brighter and brighter unto the perfect day.
Thank u once again,much love dear.
imperfectlyperfectDecember 23, 2013 at 5:00 pm
This is resonating so deeply within me again- “just kip speaking Godâs word
concerning you on that matter, and it
will surface. kip watering your seed with
his words and the harvest is surely near”-indeed,the harvest is near,God’s word never fails.
Thanks Hannah,thank you.
TenderoniiDecember 24, 2013 at 6:00 pm
God bless you Frances. like I’ve sed before dear,..You’re welcome,..always. love u darling and Merry Christmas,.its two days to Go.
imperfectlyperfectDecember 24, 2013 at 6:28 pm
Merry merry Christmas Hannah. few hours to go here…or u aren’t in Naija?
tomiwaayonrindeDecember 24, 2013 at 11:28 am
i was at this point for over a year. the devil had field day with me.. However, God does have plans for us, His word never returns to him without fulfilling the purpose for which it has been sent. My life is a living testimony to that. Yes, we would testify, Yes we are more than enough, Yes we will get to where God is leading us and Yes we will conquer. Much love darling.
imperfectlyperfectDecember 24, 2013 at 3:47 pm
Tomiwa,I was looking for the like to your comment.
Yes,God does have a plan for us and yes,we will fulfill it.
I more than believe.
Thank you so much.*hugs and much love*
peaceDecember 25, 2013 at 12:37 pm
Reading this I remember a post I did on my blog one time, I was down but I choose to believe that the storm would pass and that faith will prevail.
Sometimes depression and doubts just come to steal our Joy away and convince us that we aint up to standard and that God can’t really use us, But guess what? It’s all Lies. God’s word is final and will Surely Come to pass and NO MATTER THE SITUATION, God WILL MAKE IT ALL WORK OUT FOR GOOD.
Relax! Keep your faith.
Thanks Frances for this beautiful Post and I pray that as you have come to this point where you have decided to keep your faith and Believe on God’s word, So God’s will give you more grace and Testimonies.
imperfectlyperfectDecember 25, 2013 at 1:02 pm
Thanks for your comment,it just uplifted my soul again.
Thank you for taking the time to write this,I appreciate much.