It’s Thursday, May 15th 2014.
Cross examination is on right now in Court, a very dramatic one if I may add.The SAN seems to be really good at what he does but I am not that drawn in. My thoughts are elsewhere…
I gave Lizzie an assignment to always ping me at 7pm to leave my room and go and read (ehen,iÂ can give you assignment na,lol) but I doubt that she understood the import of what I meant. She thought I was joking, in fact, I can imagine Lizzie saying in her mind-Â “oh Frances the dramatic girl”.. IÂ also probably thought that I was joking but as I sit here, I realize that I was dead serious.
Here’s how a typical day goes by for me-Â Wake up, pray, go to court, come back from court, surf the net when I am back and probably when in court too, sleep, try to read but not actually read, surf the net, pray and sleep again. I have been gliding on a spiritual high of recent but something’s missing. I went to re-read my goals for this year on E’s blog and something is terribly missing from my life…. DISCIPLINE!
I wake up at
5am in the morning, pray and according to my goals I should exercise but do I? No.
I set out for court by past 6 or past 7 depending on my lack of self discipline, ie, lazing around in bed and do I use the time to go through past questions that I even have on my phone? No, I surf the Web instead.
I go to the library and actually manage to fill my log book but do I read too? No, I use oshofreeÂ wifi.
I get back to the room, I eat a late lunch, ok, it’s healthy, veggies or boiled beans and stew but do I just sleep like that? No, I buy fried potato, yam and akaraÂ from the woman thatÂ fries it opposite school and wolf it down at past 10 at night.
I am on a budget, I am trying to save. I have a set amount of cash to use a day but do I adhere to it? No, I buy extra chin chinÂ when I can. Yes,its justÂ #50 but if I can’t manage the small one right now, how do I manage the large ones?
And that’s the way it’s been going for a while and I am terribly disturbed. There’s no way I will achieve my goals this way. I am disturbed enough to type this in court or I am just simply indisciplinedÂ enough to still use my phone when I should be listening to proceedings (if it counts as an excuse though, I am tired and court will rise soon) Either ways, whether I am typing in court because of those excuses above or indiscipline, the ish still remains that there’s a serious problem of indiscipline and lack of self controlÂ that i’veÂ got to tackle in my life…
And that’s where i’veÂ been getting it all wrong. I’ve been trying to tackle it on my own! *hands on head* How daft can one be? Proverbs 3:5-12 says (MSG) “Trust God from the bottom of your heart; donât try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for Godâs voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; heâs the one who will keep you on track. Donât assume that you know it all. Run to God!…”
Notice the listen for God’s voice in EVERYTHING YOU DO?
Self control is a fruit of the spirit! The holy spirit already has it in abundance and it’s in me, I’ve only not been tapping into it.
I know how many times in a new week that I’ve sworn to wake up early, spend time with God, exercise, read… and end up doing none of those stuff in that order. I’ve just been relying on myself. You know, read a few quotes, a few blogs, look at some WeightlossÂ pictures, motivate myself on monday and then fall off the wagon on tuesday. I make the plans and ask God to follow up, that’s terribly wrong.
I am going to lose all the weight the new way from now on. All weight including weight of indisciplineÂ and procrastination too.
As soon as we became born again and received the holy spirit, these fruits are already in us, I am just going to be drawing from it. Self control!
I had to go on Google for bible passages on discipline, on saying no, on determination and Instead of only motivating myself, I am also going to memorize these verses in me, soak myself in them till it becomes a living word in me.
And if you are saying abegi, God dey for WeightlossÂ and waking up early? Think no more, I started this on Thursday after yarningÂ with the Holy spirit and He has been there for real! when I wake up and want to lazeÂ in the morning, this is what comes to mind – Proverbs 24:33(msg)âA nap here, a nap there, a day off here, a day off there,sit back, take it easyâdo you know what comes next?Just this: You can look forward to a dirt-poor life,with poverty as your permanent houseguest!â
And for finances? Luke 16:10-Â “If you are faithful in little things, you will be faithful in large ones. But if you are dishonest in little things, you won’t be honest with greater responsibilities.”
And on Weightloss? There’s so much on it, I will just share my favourite, when temptation hits, this is what I use- Phil 3:19 -“whose end is destruction, whose god is their appetite,Â and whose glory is in their shame, who set their minds on earthly things.”
So when my kind judge offers us soft drinks and meat pie after court proceedings, I will say no and repeat and repeat that my appetite isn’t my god.
Lord, last week was worship to you on my blog. This week it’s discipline for me and everyone that cares to join me on my blog. I am trusting you Lord, even as we do things your way and not the inspirational quotes only way, let your words come alive in our hearts.
Holy spirit, I trust you, I really trust you that from here on out, things are going to be different. Please, let things be different from today for us. Let not the issue of in discipline act as a hindrance to the goals you have laid in our hearts. Let us not wake up in December to realize that the year had gone to naughtÂ just because we couldn’t wake up early enough-just because of sleep.
Help us to realize like Paul did that all things maybe needful but not all things are beneficial.
I am going to lose the remaining weightÂ your way this time around, not my way. I am going to set out to read when I plan to because I will do it with you in me and not me in myself.
You told me from the mouth of your servant Pastor Ezekiel AtangÂ to settle the matter of discipline in my life in singlehoodÂ and I am ready to start right now by your grace.
Please help us all Lord, amen.
I believe this will be a journey worth going on.. kai! I see myself writing a book on discipline done God’s way after conquering this. Hehe, I kid? No, I am not kidding, God always drops an idea in us for a reason and the book thing just dropped as I wrote. Either ways, loves lets’sÂ do this, let’s conquer indisciplineÂ God’s way. Mandisa’sÂ Conqueror is my theme song for this, you can check it out.
And uhm, I think I need an accountability partner, Lizzie nor greeÂ so help me out anyone? HollaÂ and I will send you my pin to add me up so we will always be in touch. Be ready sha o, I need someone thatÂ will always, always hound me.
And oh for the WeightlossÂ peeps like me, I found a christian blog on weightloss-Â http://www.takebackyourtemple.com/category/scriptures/weight-loss-scriptures/
Thank me later.
And oh again, here’s a pic I picmixed yesterday.
Tis the same gown in both pictures and I’ve even had to give it to obiomaÂ tailor to slim fit it twice already…Its hard to imagine thatÂ I was that bigÂ but it was an awesome encouragement to look back at where I was coming from.Â I cantÂ stop now.
#it MUST end in PRAISE.
We MUST finish the race we started. 1corÂ 9:4
Happy New Week loves and remember- ” Proverbs 25:28- “A person without self-control is like a city broken down without walls”
@iammrpossibleMay 19, 2014 at 8:19 am
Nna erh, this your Are You Really Ready For Greater is a serious wake up call! We are already in May!
Truly, indiscipline is weighing us down on our race to reach greatness…..i can really relate with most of what you said especially procastinating ‘quiet time’ with HIM and its cus we always feel we have time.
I would really step up the discipline bar & stay focused. Thanks 4 this slender_frances(no more ‘elegant) lol.
As 4 me, no matter what i eat i NEVER add weight/size, even makes ppl wonder how i get my flat tummy #DivinelyEndowedshakara *singing* %people dey ask me say….LoL!
imperfectlyperfect92May 22, 2014 at 4:27 pm
Ah, I am possible, I dey beef all the guys wey dey chop but nor dey fat. My bro inclusive
Indiscipline won’t be a hindrance to “greater” in our lives by God’s grace.it starts with us…
Temitope OgunyinkaMay 19, 2014 at 8:45 am
God help you as you embark on the journey of weightloss! And from your pic u r on ur way already ….I tried doing it too (well I need to lose weight tummy wise….all the late nyt snacks don’t help) but now I just cut down on sugar nd try to eat fruits and drink green tea *smile*
You could try that too and see if it works.
imperfectlyperfect92May 22, 2014 at 7:40 pm
Ah Temi, thank you.
Nor be today this journey start. We know the right thing, na discipline to do am be the matter. But the last week has been great, God dey.
tenderoniiMay 19, 2014 at 9:57 am
WOW…first I must say,..you are a drama queen as lizzie said…..lol..I laughed almost throughout the post……hmmmm but on a serious note…I can relate with you on discipline…..the Holy Spirit is very available,..only for us to be yielded to his wake up call,..hopefully we get better at acting on his words…nt just hearing and acknowledging him.
I’m actually on this same journey of discipline….everyday it gets better with the help of the holy spirit.
One thing tho I must say is that,..waking up early to excercise is one sure way to start and have a great day…it keeps up,..gets you going….after the excercise, have your bath and have some fellowship with the Holy Spirit…that way..I’m sure of a well achieved successful day.
Thanks for this post babe…I’m encouraged and inspired. God bless you
imperfectlyperfect92May 22, 2014 at 8:10 pm
Hannah, Hannah, Hannah, how many times did I call you? Don’t join the band of people who think innocent Frances is a drama quenn oh, come out from them and be a good girl.lol
The Holy Spirit is always of great help, we just gotta obey and not justhear and acknowledge Him like you said, God help us all.
Me, i’ve sha noticed that If I exercise first then I may never spend my quiet time with God oh, so I make sure I pray and talk with God first before any exercise at all.
tenderoniiMay 22, 2014 at 10:15 pm
lol,..madam,…i hear you,..ok love,..i see that works for you,..ride on gurl..you’re doing great already.
preshigweMay 19, 2014 at 12:11 pm
Oooh LA LA,so I’m not beefing you today, rather I want to say thanks for this.This spoke volumes to me.My school’s been on strike and I put on some weight due to my mums orishirishi,put up a pix online and every one is like I’ve added ooh.It bothered me until I read is.For me I’ve made a decision to be more vigilant about my weight. Need to look smart for Jesus. Smiles,thanks for this.Pls DM ur bb pin.
imperfectlyperfect92May 22, 2014 at 8:12 pm
I love that- need to start looking smart for Jesus,no time oh, lol.
Thank God say you nor beef me again, na we we na.*winks*
Hand in, discipline in, we will beat down the effects of orishirishi.
Will dm my pin right now
MaggielolaMay 20, 2014 at 6:23 am
This is very encouraging, Frances! Keep striving for utter surrender to His will, and I bet you—your documentation of your struggles is a reminder to someone out there that life ain’t smooth but it’s rough without Jesus. I know this because I can totally relate with this post. Thank you for showing us this side of you! 🙂
imperfectlyperfect92May 22, 2014 at 8:14 pm
Thank you Maggie… its not smooth at all with Jesus but somehow somehow becomes smooth when we actually let Him lead and follow. it’s a struggle yes, but I believe as we are willing, His grace is enough.
Thank you Maggie once more.
1 + The OneMay 20, 2014 at 10:19 am
Wow! Well done Frances.. There’s always something to leave with whenever I visit your blog. God bless you and more of His grace on this journey – You’re doing fabulously already! xx
imperfectlyperfect92May 22, 2014 at 8:14 pm
Awww, thank you Ayo. Amen and amen!
exceptionalstarMay 20, 2014 at 2:25 pm
I am inspired
imperfectlyperfect92May 22, 2014 at 8:15 pm
I am inspired too exceptional star. Now let’s go run with that inspiration shall we? I am racing you oh. Lol
TomiwaMay 20, 2014 at 6:02 pm
Babe, e be like say the Holy Spirit dey send you to me. He’s been prompting me about this my sleeping in and lazying around when i shoud get up and discipline myself in the arts i would need as a wife and home keeper, i dey use half ear listen. Thank you ehn. I’m working on the imbibing the Word part too. O girl, #it must end in praise
imperfectlyperfect92May 22, 2014 at 8:17 pm
Lol, time to use FULL ear to listen. God help us oh, cuz me personally can’t help myself.
Lazing around days are going/gone though right? Full ear listening and obeying has come to stay…
NaijamumMay 21, 2014 at 8:05 am
I have been there Frances so I can relate. All the best sis.
imperfectlyperfect92May 22, 2014 at 7:46 pm
Thank you mummy of life!
TosinMay 23, 2014 at 1:31 pm
Wow!!! I am wonderfully speechless for now. All I can say now is Thank you,I was really blessed.
imperfectlyperfect92May 23, 2014 at 5:05 pm
Thanks too Tosin for stopping by.glad that this blessed you like it did bless me too.
Temitope BanksOctober 20, 2014 at 12:21 pm
This is so inspiring, I am trying to loose weight again and I totally understand your journey.
Frances OkoroOctober 21, 2014 at 10:24 am
Wish you all the best on this journey Temitope..
Fall we may but rise again we must!..
CynthiaNovember 25, 2015 at 7:20 pm
I need that accountability oooo…is your pin still up for grabs?
Frances OkoroNovember 25, 2015 at 8:23 pm
Of course Cynthia…my pin is still up oh.
Dm me or something, will send it to you 🙂
Still on the journey sef…
EstherFebruary 2, 2016 at 8:00 pm
Frances OkoroFebruary 6, 2016 at 7:43 pm
EstherJuly 5, 2017 at 10:41 am
This discipline comes up again. Thank you. Little little denials and delays to gratification will shift one towards the weight loss goals.
Stumbled on your blog through Bloglovin’. Well done.
Frances OkoroJuly 5, 2017 at 12:18 pm
Welcome. I wrote this in 2014, it is 2017 now AND STILL COMES IN HANDY FOR ME.
i fell but now gliding back. Discipline is a journey worth going on.. its everything to anyone who wants to stay on track on the journey to where God is taking them to.
Welcome again.. hope you stay 🙂