April 23rd 2014
Feels like I’ve left you dry for a while… well, the minister at church today said we should write and note the happenings at the service, and what better place to do that than to write to you?
I walked into that service today with no inkling of what God was about to do in my life.
I was hit by a revelation so great, the only thing I could do was cry like a baby under the touch of the Holy Spirit.
I truly don’t know what to write but I just hope that it makes sense to you.
I had wrote before the service started that I know that I talk with the Holy Spirit, I hear from you Lord but there has got to be more.
I stood as the choir sang “come and take your place O Lord… in my life” and I wondered if all I was getting was all there was to it.
I mean I went to see and just talk to a guy this evening.. if God was really taking His place in my life, why didn’t I ask Him if I should see that guy before going downstairs?
Why don’t I ask, really ask and wait for God’s reply before going to the market?
I imagine if I was in a relationship with a man, I would be keeping tabs with him when I go anywhere so why wasn’t I doing the same thing with God?
I want to ask God what I should wear before stepping out of the house in the morning, I want to ask Him what shade of lipstick to use… I want to ask Him whether I f should go or not before I step out of the house..Â . I want to bring Him into every aspect of my life..
I want Him to be Lord over EVERTHING in me…
I want Him to be Lord of all indeed..
There’s got to be more than I am experiencing with God right now.
And God answered me in service today.
He wants to come into my life as much as I desire Him to-Rev 3:18
But am I ready to allow myself to be defined by Him?
I may think that I am doing all good, I hear from God and speak in His name but God doesn’t analyse things the way humans do.
At the end of it all, God told the church at Sardis – Revelation 3;16 – “Â You say, âI am rich; I have acquired wealth and do not need a thing.â But you do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked. ”
Its not about what I think, its about how God sees me.
Am I functioning in His purpose for my life?
Do I ask “Lord, why am I here” in wherever I find myself before I take a step?
3John 1:2 – “Â Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth.”
Is my soul prospering?
Or am I still clinging to what the world wants?
When I prosper in all things, can I use it for the kingdom without hesitating?
‘God will not bless me with something I cant give out so if He tells me to give out the 100,000naira I won to His work, will I give it out and trust Him?
God has great plans for me but He will never entrust things to me that He knows I cant handle.
Can I say like Paul that I consider all earthly things dung for the knowledge of Christ?
Can I indeed say that I esteem my soul above the riches of the world?
Can I say that I rejoice in tribulations because I know that I have God?
Will I still be joyful when He is refining me through trials?
Can I pay my tithe and obey His instructions not because He will bless me in return but because I love Him and want to obey Him?
Can I obey Him in all His principles and not just because of the consequence of obedience?
Oh, I want that, I want that more than anything else.
There’s a revival by you to use youths who are ready for your walk for this generation.
I know not why you chose me as one of them but I know that I am chosen.
I know that you have pre destined me for something, I am not ordinary.
And I wish, I pray that Christian youths realise that you want to set us on fire for the world.
But are we ready?
Are we ready to esteem our souls and our relationship with you above all others? Above the world and all it loves?
Are we ready?
Am I ready?
I kept hearing “this is for you” as the word was preached today.
I believe that you have set me on fire for you.
I only pray not to fall by the wayside.
Not to ever forget that I am yours and not mine.
And I pray for grace…
Never ever allow me to be full of myself- if it will take giving me a thorn in my flesh to keep me in check like you did to Apostle Paul, then please do.
And whatever happens Lord, my earnest prayer is that that Paul prayed – “I want to know Christâyes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, 11Â and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead.“
Yes, its more than the relationship I have with you right now. Help me to always desire an infillingÂ of you.
To always know thatÂ even withÂ the infilling of you I had yesterday, there’s always more to KNOW of you tomorrow.
And above all, help me to “press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me.”
Let me not die without fulfilling it.
Let me not die without taking hold of that for which you took hold of me.
Unplug me in you.
Unplug me in you.