So it’s amazing the things that God tells us in our quiet time with Him – things that shelter us even before we get to the point where we need them.
And speaking of quiet time, I was going to answer a reader’s question on what I do during my quiet time on this week’s #OnlineBibleStudy but I had issues with the blog – my host server went down.
I can place the lack of this week’s #OnlineBibleStudy on them but truth is, even if they were working well, I still wouldn’t have been able to get up a post on wednesday and I apologize for that.
I’m in a season where #Grace has been my anchor, which is what I had as my Word at the beginning of the month.
I didn’t think too much of it, I just wrote it down in my journal as what was laid in my heart that morning as I prayed.
But this week has seen me indeed depending on the grace that only God gives.
So I(batch C corpers) are scheduled to pass out in October and those who have a personal project have been asked to round up and submit their reports.
I still have one school to get to as schools have been on holiday and then I also planned to have the book launch of my upcoming book “10Steps To Walking In Purpose” done in a school where the free copies will be given to the students.
It’s a bit tricky fixing the date of the seminar as all Thursdays which is when the school I want to do the launch at has a free period will be occupied by one thing or the other.
I finally settled on October 8th but I’m not certain because we usually have lectures before we pass out and if those lectures fall on that week, friends I invite for the launch who are corpers won’t be able to attend and even the NYSC officials won’t be able to attend and I won’t be able to do it as a corper which is what I want to do.
In the midst of sorting this out, I also have ISBN brouhaha to sort out and publisher’s drama to settle.
Erm, the book cover isn’t done yet sef and some pictures for the book aren’t ready and those I ask for help don’t really help (or rather don’t work with the same urgency that I wish for).
And that’s also in the midst of thinking “is the book even good enough sef?”.
See, it’s an irony that I am writing a book and every step in the book, I have lived out in my life too.
Is it faith? Trusting for provision?
Fear? Discouragement? Everything has happened to me.
But in the midst of all this, my word is #Grace!
Frances don’t fix your sight on yourself, fix your sight on me.
I was listing the things I have to do to a friend and he was like “this is laudable but don’t over labour yourself”. I laughed.
Over labour myself ke.
I don’t think that some persons understand this deal on purpose and I too don’t get it deeply yet.
First of all, we cannot do what God has told us to do in our own power.
Fixing our sights on ourselves is a sure way to fail.
Fixing my eyes on myself in this instance will have me scrapping the whole book deal and probably shifting it altogether.
Forget the seminars and all… but that’s the deal with purpose.
I am not doing this because it’s “laudable”, I have to do this because it’s an instruction from God to do it.
I listened to a message on the diversities of ministries yesterday and the reason why I cannot deal with what God has given me with laxity was again laid on my heart.
The message had me receiving grace and asking God to strengthen my weary heart again.
See, there’s a reason why God sent me to Ekiti for youth service.
There’s an instruction He told me to carry out – speak to young girls about His purposes for their lives.
There’s a leading He placed on my heart to write that book and get it to them… who am I to now put a snag in His plans for me?
I absolutely believe that this time is crucial in my life. Finishing is better than starting and I don’t want to have carry over from this season unto the next season of my life.
My time in Ekiti State is almost up but I don’t want it to be that I left with only a discharge certificate from NYSC and no discharge certificate from God that I have done all He wanted me to do here.
So when my friend said “that’s laudable”, I wanted to laugh out loud.
If I were doing any of this for praises, I would have fallen by the way side a long time ago.
God knows my own strength isn’t good enough. That’s why He gave me His word on grace even before I got to the point where I was weary.
This – the book – the seminars at schools is for Him, to obey Him, to step into the step He is showing me on purpose that’s right in front of me.
I just know that a lot is hinged on my really obeying God even as He builds my ministry in Him at this moment in time.
Men and women who fulfilled purpose in God are not those who were lax with what God had given them to do.
They were those who relied on God’s manifold grace and finished their course and the race God had set them on.
I had to go re-read Paul’s journey in Acts and man, did that man go all out with his life for God?
Everywhere he went, he made sure that he carried out to the fullest, all that God had purposed for him to do.
That’s the kind of life I want to live.
I want to labour for God, not with my own strength but with His grace at work in me.
With the understanding that lives are connected to mine and my life is worth nothing except I use it for what God has purposed for me to do since the beginning of time.
So again, I receive and I rely on grace, grace and grace and grace.
Even on this blog, my instruction is also to stay faithful here, and I receive grace to do so.
And when all is said and done, in Ekiti and wherever God takes me later on, I want to hear “well done good and faithful servant”.
If you are being lax with your purpose in God, I encourage you to rise up and get into the race again.
What counts with God is the journey He has placed you on. Not the vanity/”good things” that you got sidetracked with.
Even fixing your eyes on yourself and seeing yourself through the glasses of the world will trap you into irrelevance in the walk of purpose.
Fix your eyes on Jesus and let Him grace you to finish the work He wants you to do for Him.
I pray that we will all walk in God’s purposes for our lives.
We won’t start and stop midway.
I pray that God gives us the grace to recognize the times and seasons we are in and help us to move along into what He has for us at every season in time, in Jesus name, amen.
And please dears, pray for me every time thoughts of me pop into your heart.
Pray that I will not falter in my walk of purpose.
I know the stuff that comes into my heart each day that only keeping my eyes on Jesus helps me keep at bay.
Pray for everything about the book to go well. I will be going to Akure for ISBN today, pray for favour and pray that everyone I need to help me in this walk, God will bring my way.
Thank you all so much.
Till next time on Lessons from walking in purpose,
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